Why am I so scared to travel alone now? I was on my way to pick up the microfill test strips from my doctor's office with my boyfriend in the passenger's seat, as usual, and that question popped into my head. Ever since I met him I really haven't traveled anywhere by myself. I started thinking about all the adventures I used to go on by myself. Previously, I didn't think twice about going alone to meet a photographer for the first time and I didn't hesitate to jump on a plane to New York City if I felt like it. Now I run everything by him first to see if he can do it too. It's amazing how dependent I've become on his company. It just got me wondering what happened? I used to be so independent. I guess after three years of having such a close connection with someone it's hard to go outside of your comfort zones. I've been finding myself wanting to get back to that person I used to be. I don't want to second-guess everything. I don't necessarily want to end this relationship, but I want to figure out a way to get that freedom back. I've shared this with my boyfriend before. He always tells me that he's not holding me back and that I should just go. All things considered, I'm starting to wonder what's taking me so long. I think after today's discussion I'm going to spend some time this week looking up the price of flights!