I just got off the phone with my friend. We had a fairly long conversation. I've been helping him through some problems. He's been really concerned about some hair loss because of how young he is. I've been with him to several doctor's appointments and, fortunately, they ruled out anything like cancer. The doctor thought he might like to try laser treatment or hear about some other options so that's what the last appointment was about.  Especially since his hair problem, we've gotten really close over the last couple of years. I might even go so far as to say we're best friends. I don't tell him about my problems though. Sometimes it's hard for me to talk to him. This whole time we're talking he doesn't know that I have feelings for him. Sometimes he'll just start crying on the phone and I really find myself getting emotional about it too and wanting to hold his hand and comfort him. I feel like if I say something it might cause him more stress right now. We've already shared with each other a bunch of personal stuff about our past relationships. He's already confided in me that he's not interested in dating anybody. Ever since his four year relationship ended he just said he's so confused about love and relationships and what the point is. It breaks my heart every time I hear it. It's frustrating for me because sometimes I get that feeling like he could be the one, but he just wouldn't be able to see it. He just isn't there yet. I'm ready to move things along in my life and I can't wait around forever. Maybe when he looks back on his life he'll realize that the girl who spent all this time on the phone with him just listening and all this time waiting around with him at his doctor's appointments was really someone special.